Monday, September 5, 2011
I have no idea what I'm drinking this morning. However, it tastes very good and is doing the trick in getting me on my feet. Which is saying a lot considering that I feel like I've been knocked down. Oh, I haven't been on a bender. I had no alcohol last night. What I've been on for the last few weeks is an emotional roller coaster.
Hopefully, this will be the week that turns it around and I find my center. Hopefully. I've had so much going on in my head. I have finally accepted that I've got more time behind me than I do in front of me. And, as Richard Pryor used to say, "Whatcha gone do?"
Well, I don't know. Honestly. I don't. I do know that the definition of insanity is continuing to do the same thing over and over and expecting different results. So, what I will try to do is make a conscious effort to do something different every day. I've already made a "first step" in taking myself out of my comfort zone. Now, all I have to do is get comfortable in my zone.
Until then, I may just keep brewing "remnant coffee" from different beans. Who knows? Confusion in my cup might equal order in my head.
at 8:55 AM